Man’s Love Not A Weakness

Dear Nancy,

Well, hello there.  How’s my Darling doing?  

Honey, today I’m really lonely.  I miss you so very much.  Here I am a grown man fully capable of taking care of myself and my needs.  So, why does my whole life depend on you?  Why does everything I do say or think have you in mind?  

I may be able to take care of myself but without you’re love, Nancy, I’m not worth taking care of.  What I’m trying to say is that I need you.  I more than need you, I’ve got to have you.  I don’t like having to say this but you have me sewn up.

The reason I hate to say it is because a man doesn’t want to be weak and he sure doesn’t like to admit his weakness.  But my love for you is no weakness as long as your love for me stays there.  It’s my strength.   The only way it can ever become a weakness is if your love for me goes sour and then life isn’t worth living anyway.  I guess you could say your love is to me what spinach is to Popeye.

Hey, did you make it through the storm okay?  We got some pictures of Sinton in yesterdays paper and it really looked bad.  I hope everything is alright.

Honey, I’m in a weird mood tonight.  I want to tell you just how much I love you and I can’t with this pen and paper.  I’m going to try and get a tape off to you as soon as I can.  I’d love to have one from you if you could, please?  

I’m going to close for now and go to bed.  I need you to kick me in the pants and tell me to quit feeling sorry for myself.  So, I guess I’ll have to do it myself.  Ouch!  I forgot about my hemorrhoids.  HA!

God bless you, my love, and know in your heart that I love you very much.

All my Love Forever,

Frank

P.S.  I’m about ready for a “dream date”  any time you’re ready.

Dearest Nancy,

I love you.  In a hundred and seventeen days, you and I once again will be as one.  That is what we were both made for and that is what we both want. The ability to live together as a couple, as a partnership and a family isn’t easily obtained.  Yet, we two have accomplished this feat with relative ease.  Why?  Well, I feel it is because we are so deeply in love and so very compatible with each other.  

Look up the divorce rate in our country.  So, that fact right there should show you how hard it is to find true compatibility and happiness while living with a member of the opposite sex.  It’s hard for me to understand because, for me and yourself, it was so easy.

I believe the reason it’s easy for us is because we understand each other very well.  But the biggest factor is that small overused word, love.  Many people use it too lightly.  When I use the word love it explains an emotional, physical, and psychosocially feeling.

It explains everything that is happening to me at once.  It describes how I feel, think and hurt, and all these feelings are directed totally to you.  To put in simpler terms, you own my heart, body, and mind.  You are the sole possessor of me.  In other words, I’m yours for as long as you can stand it.

I’m making you a tape.  I did half of it today and day after tomorrow, I’ll finish it up and send it to you.  I just remembered something.  I hope you remember it too.  I didn’t get to write to you for a few days, but I explained it all in my tape, so I won’t go into it again.

I’m really looking forward to seeing you again.  I guess that sounds crazy but I am.  I really am going crazy to see you again.  It won’t be long now.  Here we are sliding down the hill and getting closer and closer to the bottom.

What a happy day it will be when I walk out of the Army and into my love’s arms forever.  I’ll be the happiest man in the world.  I love you so much my, Darling.  We’re going to be so very happy again.  How good it will feel to know that it is permanent, not for thirty days or whatever.

To know that I’ll never be more than a few feet away from you at any time.  To know that when I’m lonely all I have to do is call and you’ll come running into my arms.  To sit down over a quiet cup of coffee and talk.  To feel your warm body laying tenderly close to mine.  To wake up in the morning and see you so peaceful in contented sleep.  I can go on and on forever. 

It all amounts to the fact that, Darling, I love you with all my heart and I need you by my side for all times.  

I have to go now, Hon and get some much-needed sleep.  Take care of yourself and I’ll be there soon.

All my Love for all my Life,

Frank

Dear Nancy,

A happy day to you.  How’s my woman today?  If your love for me is as strong as my love for you is then everything is alright.

Here, I am on my three days R&R.  I couldn’t afford to go to the R&R center at Da Nang, so I’ll spend it in my room writing you and reading,  Just to have three whole days off from work to relax is going to be fine.  It also gives me time to be alone and think.  To make plans for when I get out.

I got your letter about going to your Granddad’s place when I get out.  I’m glad, I really am.  In California, we wouldn’t be really alone.  There would be people all around and I’m greedy.  I want you all to myself.  I don’t want to talk, see, or listen to anyone but you.  I want all your attention. In short, I don’t want to share any of you with anyone. 

I’ve done without all of you for so long and now I will not and I mean will not do without you anymore.  I’ve paid my price for the free world, our economy, South Vietnam, and our government.  Now, all I want in return is about two weeks with my wife in solitude.  If that’s too much to ask then too damn bad because I’m going to get it. 

Maybe this doesn’t sound like old easy going me.  Well, it isn’t.  I’ve been pushed and told what to do when to do it, and where to do it long enough.  In 115 days, I’m going to start getting my way and get the things we both want.  It’s our turn. 

I want this to be a closely guarded secret.  I don’t want people to know that I’m home.  I don’t want anyone knowing where we are.  I will not tolerate people breaking our peace. Maybe you think I’m being a fanatic about this but I want this very much and I’m looking so forward to it that I don’t want it spoiled by anyone. 

If anyone wants to know why you’re meeting me in Houston, then tell them that I’m meeting you then we’re driving to Louisiana for a second Honeymoon.  I’ll meet you in Houston.  I want you to register in a hotel there near the airport and I’ll come to the hotel when I get there.  We’ll work all the details out later. Without you, nothing would be worth anything for me.  

Honey, I’d better close for now.  My heart is beating 100 miles an hour just thinking of seeing you again.  Take care of yourself and remember me in your prayers.  I love you and you know I do.  God bless you, my life.

All My Love,

Frank

P.S.  HICO DREAMING!!!!

Dear Nancy,

Hi!  I love you!!  I got five, yes five letters from you today.  I’m just sitting on top of the world.  I sat down and read every one of them in complete excitement.  Weird huh?  No, just thrilled at hearing from you and reading how much I love you and you love me.

You say we’re getting “short”.  Well, you’re right but we’re not getting short enough.  Pretty soon though, I’ll be fighting my way to Oakland then into the great “state” and into the great arms of my Wife!!! “Aurk”!!  That’s “Argg”, I just misspelled it.

I wrote my folks two days ago.  So that solves the promise you wanted me to make.

I don’t believe it!!!  Your fingernails are growing!!!  Eureka!!!  What’s the matter??  You put poison on them or what??  Looks like our next fight is going to be a really good one, huh?  HA!  I know you plan on doing a job on my back, huh? HA! HA!  Feel free to do so by all means.  HA!

What’s this hip language?  “Decent”, “Out of sight”?  You’re getting hip, huh?  Well, you’d better not get too hippie or I’ll have you running around the block till you get less hippie.  Joke! HA! HA!  Well, so what!

Now for the serious side.  You were worried about a kid in Hue getting killed over a watch.  It’s bad and I’ll admit that but it’s expected.  You’d have to be here and see the stuff that goes on before you can understand it. 

I don’t really blame the guy.  He shouldn’t have killed him though. That sounds cruel, doesn’t it?  Well, you know me and you know I don’t get violent easily.  So take it from there. 

You’re right about him being in trouble.  Funny thing though you don’t hear of a kid getting in trouble when he throws a grenade in a jeep and kills three Americans.  No, he’s only a child.  Well, I tell you what, children over here kills people. 

It’s the wrong way to feel but you can’t help it.  My whole goal is to put my time in, go home, and get there just like I left.  With all my body parts. So you get this way and like I said it’s wrong and that’s why I want to get out of here because I don’t like feeling this way.  I’m sorry if you disagree with me and think less of me for being this way.  I really am sorry.

You say you don’t care if I come home naked, “as a matter of fact, I’m looking forward to having you home and keeping you that way.”    Well, Honey, I want you to remember you said that.  Because I’m really looking forward to it.  I love you.

Honey, I’m going to close for now.  I’m so happy and I’m getting “up-tight” (more hip talk) because I can’t convey how I feel.   

I’M HAPPY AND I’M IN LOVE!!!!!!!

God bless you, my love and I’ll see you in 112 days.

All My Love for You, Forever,

Frank

I LOVE YOU